In an earlier post (I've reverted to draft) I spoke about social anxieties and confidence. I need to follow up by saying that I wouldn't be where I am today if I didn't believe in myself and my work. We all have thoughts of self doubt sometimes, but you can't let those thoughts keep you from living your dream. Positive thinking (and a lot of hard work) is what got me this far, and I know it will continue to propel my dreams! It's a combination of everything…a positive attitude, confidence, studying, and working every day, taking the steps needed to obtain your goals! It doesn't happen overnight...
When I first started this blog I called it "My Life As a Starving Artist" because I was starving to express myself through paint (I wasn't literally starving but believe me, living the frugal life I lead does give some great incentive to succeed!) I think that may be what sets me apart from a lot of artists. Not all, but several, have had other successful careers and started painting after that, having a nice budget to fall back on. Money is not the most important thing for me, but when you need it to pay the bills it kind of gives you a little push to try harder. Back when I decided I couldn't spend another day not creating art for my life, I was raising my daughter, doing it all on my own, with a minimum wage job I took to start our new life in a small town. Sometimes difficult, our situation didn't leave much time or energy for me to do much of anything else besides raising my beautiful daughter. I managed to create things on the side selling in our local craft fair, but couldn't dedicate the time that it would take for a real business. I always felt like something was missing and had a great desire to express myself with my art. I just had to! After years of living like this, I managed to get one of the best jobs around here (in my opinion). Working with special needs children gave me so much joy and I felt like I was actual making a difference in their lives. I loved my job but still had to create. Working in the school system, I was able to spend more time painting having summers off! So that's when I started painting everyday and posting them on here. I had nothing to lose and so much to gain! Painting almost every day and using the internet to learn as much as I could (for free), I was able to improve my painting skills to better express my passion for the world! It was a big bonus when I found that people actually like what I paint enough to display it in their homes!
It's taken almost 5 years to get to where I am today and may take another 5 to get to where I want to be...but I won't give up! I have big dreams of making enough money with my art, to, buy my daughter a car and move to Hawaii (or at least back to the coast. Yes…I'm a dreamer! haha!) but I also want to give back! I want to be able to support the causes that I care about, like special needs children, homeless people, and others who are struggling through life like I have at times. I believe we as artists and as humans can make a difference in this world. We have a voice and need to use it for positive causes. I truly believe that dreams CAN come true and with positive thinking, a lot of hard work, dedication and meditation, almost anything is possible. I also am a believer that everything happens for a reason.
yes, I said meditation…to be continued in my next post!